Short Break #9: Floating
Welcome back to another short break.
Right now, it feels like I’m floating.
I’m not stuck. I’m not trapped. I’m floating on my own accord, face facing skyward, letting the water push me in whatever direction it’s going.
After years of ambition, it’s nice to slow down and accept whatever life throws at me.
I miss competing sometimes. Whether it be for a debate competition or for someone’s attention, there’s a certain rush that competing brings.
But right now, it feels like the world has all but forgotten about me. That my existence is just one amongst the billions of other humans existing today. I am both significant and insignificant. I have done nothing notable in the past few months, nor do I expect to do anything noteworthy in the coming weeks.
I’m not remarkable. Not yet anyway. Maybe one day I will be.
But for now, I’m just existing. I’m just being human. I’m getting excited after finding out you can download Poptropica on your phone. I just bought Sally Rooney’s new book and can’t wait to read it. I’m trying to get to a higher rank in Pokemon Unite (ok I’m still competing a bit). I’m listening to songs that remind me of people that have come in the past and will not come again in the future. I’ve just finished Jujutsu Kaisen and have now proceeded to watch Shaman King.
Today I’m floating. Maybe one day I’ll decide to swim back to shore and start chasing something with purpose again.
But for now, I’ll just stare into the sky, thinking about everything and nothing.
See you in the next break.
